Sorry for such the long delay.

So much has happened over the course of the last month or so.

The loss of Jmoe a dear friend.

The acquisition of a hot boyfriend.

The realization that yeah, Im old, but you know what?  I can learn and I can overcome.

The last few weeks have been rough with the loss of Jmoe.  Thankfully Jacob was there to comfort and be by my side, as well as many many good friends.  Its odd that just as your coming to terms with the situation we have his memorial.  Beautiful as it was and I was doing good, his friends did a video montage and they used a recording of a voice mail Jmoe left.  That did it.  His voice was the send off to a severe flood.

I guess deep down in my heart there was plausible deniability.  I didn’t see it, it didn’t happen, its just a mistake, it wasn’t him.  Then I get there, and it was him, I cant deny it, I cant make it wish away.  In the back of my head I hear him tell me its okay, he’s okay and he’ll be fine.  I still struggle with it and think I will for some time.  I just miss my friend.

Then there’s Jacob.  Poor kid barely dating me two weeks and all hell breaks loose.  Im the strong one dammit Im not to be seen in tears.  He’s quite the trooper and I appreciate it more than he can possibly know.

So Jacob is the B/F for those of you that aren’t really following along.  He’s an adorable kid and my feelings for him continue to grow.  We’ll have our patch’s here and there but what fun is life without a few dips in the road?

I have my tickets and my trip is set to go home and see my Mom.  Its been a year and its long over due.  Its funny though as excited as I am, how much I feel bad about leaving Meghan and Paige and Jacob.  Thank god I have a good cell plan!

Paiges Halloween costume was incredible if you know me on flickr just look it up there or on Facebook.

Hugz all around and thank you all for your support.