Just A Bear Blog

I get home take a nap wake up with both puppeh’s sleeping nicely next to me <shockingly not playing or fighting just snoozing away> and decide ok I need to eat. So I get up and disengage myself from the puppies and go foraging for noms. I find that I have one giant nectarine left which I cut up to munch and decided that will do it.

I go back up stairs put the dogs away and lie down for bed. Watching tv I catch a commercial or show and all of a sudden im down and moody. What the hell it wasnt even that emotional of a commercial.

I start to think about things and realize that I’ve been bouncing between happy and just down right depressed over the last few months…Fuck am I bipolar now?

<Shrug> anyway went to post this last night and my tablet died so I just went to sleep. Hoping things cheer up soon.

Later ya’ll.

Damn computers

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Aug 242011

So my roomies mini laptop has decided to go nutzo, my PC is die’n and yeah what a night,

Least I have my tablet,

I’m over it all its too damn hot and I’m going to bed. Night night.

Sometimes…..

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Aug 222011

Sometimes I get lonely. Its kind of a bitch cause its not a normal lonely, but a nagging lonely that’s not that easily explained or fixed. In all honesty I have what I need, Meghan provides companionship and love as does her daughter. My puppeh keeps me company and gives unconditional love. I suppose I am missing guy love, I know sounds corny so try not to laugh while I explain,

I miss the feel of a man next to me, I miss the warmth of someone else masculine and just a bit rough at my side. Nothing feminine just masculine.

I miss sleeping next to it. Having that securty, that safety if it makes sense. I might be a big guy, might be called daddy but there are times that I myself need a bit of that old security blanket.

Oh well, its late and I need to at least attempt to sleep.